WHY DID I LEAVE MY COMFORT ZONE? – RELATIONSHIPS
How sad is it that we don’t have time and space to love somebody?
Today’s world is kinda unlucky time considering the relationships. I have dated both Turkish and nonTurkish guys. However, the meaning of love has changed a lot I see compared to the love that we used to read in the books, in the old movies and even 10 years back. This isn’t something related to nationality but something related to time that we live in. Now, we live in a time that we can easily access to anything.
If you don’t agree with me, tell me when was the last time
– you felt your heart skips a beat to see a person?
– you felt excitement of first hand hold?
– well, what about excitement of first kiss?
– hearing your heart beat to have sex with a person?
Maybe now you have thought about your last couple of “boyfriends” or “girlfriends” and couldn’t remember any of these moments. Because you have never felt it.. What a pity! We consume everything so quick which results in losing the value of things.
Anyone of you isn’t familiar with these sentences?
– I spend such an amazing time with you BUT..
– I found you so late and don’t wanna lose you BUT..
– You mean a lot to me BUT..
In some of my “relationships”…I used to hear these sentences..
What is this BUT? Is it a new trend? However, first we need to answer what love is. Love is to give, to care, to sacrifice, to feel, to be loyal, to share, togetherness, to compromise, to nurture, to learn, to grow together, not only I nor We but harmony of I and We..
Well what love is NOT? It is not sex, it is not putting photos on instagram as a couple, it is not showing up with a good looking guy or a beautiful girl at a Friday night party, it is not going out fancy restaurants, it is not texting on the phone.. AND it is NOT something just to have somebody accompany you to cover your loneliness!
Now, I think men don’t really know what they want? Sorry guys, generalizing you and I am sure there are that kind of women as well. 🙂 But the thing is generally that is my experience even I talk to my girl friends.
At some point they are in need of this basic emotion but since we turn to be a really practical generation we don’t want to devote our time to make heathy relationships. Also, with easy access to meeting new people, easily having sex why to spend energy and time for such a thing. We are confused and stuck with this world and pure emotions which makes people being in between. And we have become commitment fobic.
My last kinda boyfriend while everything was amazing he was telling me how beautiful everything etc but then suddenly he disappeared. Like in the stories hocus pocus.. It was sad but it passed so quick. I am learning to live without attachments. But at the same time I worry to lose this pure love within me.. I worry not to share my happy, sad, exciting, difficult, beautiful moments with the person..
Well what happened with my relationships is they made me feel overwhelmed. And it is also a reason for me to leave everything behind and take this road coming to India and traveling..
Beautiful women , strong women, precious women.. I know I am not the only one who experiences these things in relationships.. And you should know that you are not the only one. And there isn’t any problem with us.. The only thing is every single day people lose their pure emotions..
Now, after all these things I frankly say that I am thankful for all the things that happened in the past with guys. I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason.
I am happy that my life came across with these guys and then separated. If I wasn’t single, I wouldn’t give this decision and come to India, take this road.
Thank you guys who came into my life and left..
I am happy that once you were here and then suddenly disappeared…
Maybe, I will find love on the road who knows 🙂
Stay with love…